Estrangement weighs heavily in mom's dream

Our dreams will sometimes take the questions and dilemmas we’re engaged in during the day and extrapolate on them.  Consider all components of such dreams rather than dismissing them as mere rehashes of the day’s worries. 

Every mother's goal is to keep her child safe.  But when he breaks free of her restraints, anxiety, uncertainty and guilt are sure to follow.

Dear SMYD,

I met this new man and I’m trying to decide what I should tell him about my son, “Burt.”  I loved dancing and playing with him, taking care of him, etc.  Those were good memories.  He's a grown man now and we are estranged, just FYI. 

I dreamt that Burt and I were in the bargain basement of a department store.  He was about 3-4 years of age. I had a harness and a leash on him.  (I never used a harness on him when he was a child.)  The leash became disengaged from the harness and like lightning, he was gone.  (He never "took off" like that when he was little, not until he was in his teens!) 

I cried; I looked; I asked for help; no one seemed to be concerned.  I went home and called the police, then went back to the store and called the powers that be at the store.  There were nondescript people around.  I kept saying to the uninterested parties, “but he's only a little boy, a baby.” 

It was really distressing and I was just trapped in the emotion.

Signed,

Upset Mom

Dear Upset,

By adulthood, all of us carry powerful feelings about the relationships in our lives, especially if those relationships ended differently from what we hoped or expected.  Your budding relationship with a new man provides the perfect backdrop for a review of your relationship with your estranged son.  Awake and asleep, you’re weighing how much to reveal to him and when. 

First, your dream is replaying the emotions you felt as the events in your relationship with Burt unfolded.  This puts you on notice that all those feelings are alive and well in you, in contrast to the selective “good memories” you mention, “just FYI.”

Also, your dream ignites the pain and guilt every parent feels when in that mode of replaying the past.  Burt got away from you.  “What went wrong?  What could I have done differently?”   Any parent can relate to that kind of circular, hurtful second guessing. 

That the setting of your dream is a "bargain basement" suggests a thought that somehow Burt is discounted or devalued or perhaps that a “cut rate” is in play if you don’t tell the whole story.  Don’t forget, your dream provides a dramatic illustration of the pain that is just below the surface for you.  If you attempt to share only the rosy memories, you discount the full picture.  Is it too soon to reveal so much of yourself to a new man?

The disinterested parties may represent the contrast between the heavy weight you place on the distress of estrangement and the level of concern and negative assessment you assume others will levy.  Go easy on yourself, Dear Dreamer!   Your self-judgment is harsh enough.

Sweet Dreams to You!

Your dreams are all you!

Your Dreaming Self has hundreds and even thousands of people to choose from when selecting the cast of characters for your dreams.  But s/he picks certain individuals because they fulfill the requirements of the story you need to be told.  It’s no accident that a neighbor you haven’t thought of in years appears in your dream instead of the good friend you see every day, or visa versa.  Today’s dream offers a good example.

Dear SMYD,

I know you always say that we dream about particular people for a reason, and I think it’s true.  But this dream still bothers me, and I can’t understand why these women came across the way they did. 

I dreamed about two different people that I know.  One of them, “Brenda,” I know from school.  She kind of acts tough, but is really a marshmallow.  I found this out about her once when I saw her being pushy and another person stood up to her.  She nearly collapsed!  She cried and practically ran away!

The other one, “Jackie,” lives in my neighborhood.  She is strong, athletic, blonde and confident.  She is smart and people listen to her.  She seems to get her way without even trying.  People just do what she wants and feel good about it!

In my dream, I was at work and Brenda was sitting at my desk.  Then Jackie walked up and I introduced these two women to each other.  Suddenly I thought that they were lesbians (I don’t think they are) and maybe they would “like” each other.  Sure enough, Brenda got all shy and Jackie started to flirt a little bit.  I thought to myself it was probably a good thing I introduced them to each other.

What does it mean that in my dream they’re lesbians?

Signed,

Straight Woman 

Dear Straight,

The background information you offered about each woman and the setting for your dream provide keys to understanding how it applies to you.

Think about the traits each woman portrays:  Brenda is a little bit of a bully, bluffing her way through things until someone calls her bluff.  Then she turns in fear and runs.  Jackie on the other hand, comes across as friendly and smart.  Her easy confidence carries every situation, putting people at ease, garnering their trust.  People want to follow her lead.

Most likely, Dear Dreamer, you will recognize these as your own traits.  Sometimes at work you try to push your way through, bluffing when you’re unsure of yourself or your position.  Your dream suggests that you might want to make the acquaintance of your more confident self.  Bring her to the forefront.  You’re smart and personable.  Those are the traits that will propel you into leadership roles.

A little self-love is called for by the concept of lesbianism.  Learn to acknowledge and appreciate both parts of yourself.  When you find yourself feeling unsure, take note.   It’s OK to say, “I don’t know.”  Let your confident self show the scaredy-cat how to interact when challenges arise.

Sweet Dreams to You!

Dreamer lets "Earl" keep her down

We do dream for others on occasion.  So, if you’ve had a dream that might be helpful for someone in it to know about, by all means, share it!  At the same time, chances are excellent that another layer of meaning from that dream will emerge for the dreamer as well.  Today’s dream is a good example.

Dear Carolyn,

There’s a girl at my school (“Pam”) that everyone tells me I look like.  I wish!  She’s cute and petite and she’s a cheerleader and even a class officer.  I won’t say I’m a nobody, but I am not as popular or well-known as she is.  I mostly just go about my business without being the center of attention.  I’m not exactly shy, but I just stay in the background.  I have a lot of classes with Pam again this year.  Now I’ve even dreamed about her!

In my dream this guy named Earl is bothering Pam.  He kind of hovers over her and tries to scare her.  He’s a lot bigger than she is and mean.  (I knew Earl in middle school and he was a total jerk.  He lied all the time and stole from everyone.  People hated him but tolerated him because they were afraid of him.)  So the dream just repeats itself where she hunkers down and just waits for him to do his thing.  He finally just quits and goes away, then she stands up and it starts all over again.  It’s weird because she’s smiling all the time!  She smiles even when she’s walking all bent over.

Signed,

Sorry for Pam

 

Dear Sorry,

It could be that Pam’s having a problem with a bully.  Even if she’s not, she might enjoy hearing about your dream.  After all she’s the star, right?

Or, more likely, you are the star of your dream, represented by Pam, the girl who looks like you and symbolizes the things you could accomplish.  Even if you deny that you look like Pam, could it be that in the back of your mind you have some things in common with her?  Perhaps you have kept yourself out of the spotlight unnecessarily.  Maybe you have traits, talents and skills that could put you in the forefront.  This is not to say that you would be just like Pam, but that like her, you could be a leader in your own realm.

Perhaps you have your own “Earl,” Dear Dreamer.  Chances are, Earl represents a part of yourself that lies to you and steals opportunities and experiences from you.  Have you passed up a chance to do something new?  Did you turn away from the prospect of leadership?  Earl hovers over you and prevents you from standing up straight and taking your rightful place among your peers.  When you listen to his negative self-talk, you limit yourself.  And why?  You’re not afraid of him.

Keep smiling and stand up to your inner bully!  You are a rising star!

Sweet Dreams to You!

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A bite out of dreamer's credit/credibility

Our dreams often provide multiple insights into our waking lives and states of mind.  For example, if your dream shows you a flat tire, it’s a good idea to check the tires on your car.  You’ll also want to consider a more symbolic meaning, perhaps that you’ve “gone flat” in your attitude, or your ability to move forward is impeded – you’re limping along.  Today’s dreamer brings a good example for our consideration:

Dear Carolyn,

I guess you could say I’ve hit a rough spell in my life.  First, I got laid off and had a hard time finding a new job.  After months of unemployment, and just when I was getting scared about spending my last dime, I got a great job.  I felt good until I made a stupid mistake at work. Now I think my new boss must be wondering why he hired me.  Instead of making him money, I’ve cost him money.  Now I’m keeping my head low.

So, I kind of get this dream, but I’d like to hear your take on it:  I saw my Visa card just floating in the air in front of me.  That’s all there was to it; nothing else except the card.  It was big, almost poster-sized, and maybe an inch thick.  I’m not sure what it was made of, but it had a big chunk off the corner, almost like a big bite out of it.  As it floated it turned and I had to duck to keep from being hit by it.  I remember feeling embarrassed when it bumped me.

Signed,

Shaky Credit

 

Dear Shaky,

Your one-image dream is a brief, but beautiful example of the depth of meaning than can be portrayed by a picture.  A credit card can be just that – a handy object used to allow us to purchase when we don’t have cash on hand.  It also can symbolize our standing as a trusted individual, one who has shown himself to be dependable in his promise to may later for a purchase today.

You mentioned that you were almost down to your last dime, Dear Dreamer.  Did you miss a payment or two, or send one in late?  Your dream suggests that your credit standing is damaged – a clear message to exercise caution where your credit is concerned.  Don’t allow yourself to get eaten up with high interest rates and burdensome bills.

In addition, the floating specter of a damaged credit card might be speaking to that awkward situation you mention at your new job:  Your credibility may have a bite taken out of it as well.  This is the kind of thing you must live down.  It takes time, patience and confidence.  Your new boss believed in you when he hired you.  One false step shouldn’t destroy everything.

It’s hard not to feel embarrassed.  You wanted to show your best self, but a gaffe has shaken your confidence.  Hold your head up, Dear Dreamer.  Otherwise, you could find yourself trying too hard and get bumped again.

Sweet Dreams to You!

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